My life in a glimpse

‘’.......huh...’’ (sigh!).......” Annie.....stop!...” said Naina, “......stop, because its not worth it.....”. “I know Naina, but three years....three years I lived in an illusion and now it is difficult for me to decipher which of this is true....what I had in three years or what I have now”. “Annie seriously....I mean seriously you had no clue......”. “.....I think I did but I guess there was an overpowering sense of denial which was ruling my mind, even though my practical mind told me I was doomed....I was addicted to it.......and as you know (rolling eyes)......how it is for addicts (wink!)”. For a moment Naina saw the glimpse of her old Annie, her Annie who was so full of life, energy........ geeky, lost, smiling and sometimes happening........but practical Annie who made the right choices, the smart choices.   “Anyway it was great catching up...you know with the job and stuff how it can get.......”, said Annie.  “Anytime sweetheart.....and you know am always there for you...

5 months....as usual a long time.....oodles have happened during this period...I submitted my thesis on 16th December, 2011 (groan! no more hilarious Ph.D. comic scripts now). The new year brought a new surprise...my status was updated from research scholar-------->Assistant Professor....yes yes now I teach undergraduate students....(I know its a shock for you...it was an even bigger shock for me....ME.. A....T-E-A-C-H-E-R)... While starting out work there I realized it was very tough for me to establish myself as one cause I looked no more than a student. Today 4 months into the profession .......4 months of desperate attempts to look like a prof.......I was staring into my wardrobe when my eyes stopped over the pink coloured long cloth.....and I recalled what dadi (paternal grandmother) told me '.....saree is the most sensuous dress in which you can show all and hide all....'. With westernization creeping up all aspects....lifestyle, wardrobe...most of the women of young

Heyyy Its been pretty longgggggggg........ooops...just got a bit carried away.....I haven't been in touch with you, you and you..and then again you. ummm guess too busy with my work..shucks what a lame excuse...you are never too busy to keep in touch with yourself...but it atleast makes you feel important ' I have been too busy #$@%$$$$$$...' Seems to strike a bell doesn't it.....no don't duck now...have already caught you with that smirk on your face....you use the same excuse ;-).....So lets see what are the pseudo things which have kept me busy......(trying too hard to remember!!!!)...oh yes getting up in the morning to go to the uni (university). 'Sigh!!!!! my long saga with Amycolatopsis mediterranei has come to an end'. For all you non science people...please don't Google the word....hey and you too students of biology...lets just say its the only love story I had which started with Amy and ended with Aeshna. No more remnants of this ...sigh!!!...

...the doorstep again...she's been there...and she is here again...but alone. The picture on the other side is foggy...She looks back longingly..unwilling to let go of it......but no one is letting her live it. Again she feels the seering pain shoot through her. She closes her eyes tightly till tears escape. 'It will pass..it will pass ' she chants. She is breathless but slowly she feels the pain subside. 'Should I see a doctor? But what will I tell him?' She checks again, but cannot locate the source of pain. How tired she is...rest seems at bay. She is massaging her head slowly...damn! of course she will never find the source of pain......it is not physical. She sits by the side of window and recalls...never a popular child...known only for her chubbiness she cringed at the thought of a big gathering where she would be the butt of their jokes. The best escape was to bury herself in books..atleast she would find solace in their silence. In no time she was popul

'......cry cry kaiko cry.....' of lately am humming this song a lot.........life just isn't unfolding itself like I would want it to. Hardwork may just not reap results no not always..........Have been waiting so long for that bell to ring just that piece of cake which would sweeten up my life a bit.....maybe a magic wand which would maybe for just for a few moments lighten up my life...that phonecall for which I have been waiting so long........But life is a mystery and you can keep on wondering why is it happening and yet never come up with an answer to that why. It is a general human tendency to think they carry the burden of the heaviest cross.....they are burdened with all the problems. But just look around you and you will realise you are the blessed one. I keep crying about not getting positive results not being able to manage my life.....and oh! of that phonecall......but Aeshna what about that girl, Sujata who was abandoned by her husband and left to fend for herse

Hey.....well it seems to become a regular habit of me to be so irregular with my posts...am sorry.......well what should I blame it on...laziness, lack of enthusiasm, or sheer dullness in life. Well I would just vote for all of them :-P. The only thing dominating my life presently is my classes..this semester system (flashback to sometime back when there was a lot of noise of semester system being introduced in the University of Delhi)........yes yes I too am a prey to it...and before you think about the number of b ooks I have to study let me clarify...I am not exactly studying...am teaching post graduate students....as teaching assistant.......'The channel of communication between students and professors' (Hush! believe me we are actually still confused about our identity..as the Hindi saying goes 'dhobi ke kutte na ghar ke na ghat ke'). We put in more time and efforts than students and profs.......Oh! the hot topic of discussion nowdays '@CWG'. It is titled &